I guess it’s a sure sign that I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel now that I’m starting to look forward to the way my life might look after treatment. We’re well over halfway done now that round 4 is over, 2 more rounds to go (and then the high-dose). It still feels like there’s a lot left, and I certainly can’t wait to get these peripheral medical devices off/out of my body (my mom calls me the bionic woman), but there’s definitely less left to go through than what I’ve already done.
In honor of the light of the end of the tunnel, here’s an incomplete list of some of the things I’m looking forward to once treatment is done.
- Weddings. I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it to all of them, but it seems I know a lot of people who are getting engaged lately and married this summer. I hope I’ll be healthy enough to make it to all of them.
- My birthday. So, slightly selfish, but it will be such a nice birthday present to have it be springtime and be healthy (hopefully!).
- Not having to worry so much about what I eat or how much I eat. If I want to eat junk food, bring it on. If I don’t feel like eating I won’t have to. And best of all not having to worry about if something I’m eating will make me feel nauseous.
- Horses. I cannot wait to get back out to the barn.
- Work. It may seem silly, and I’m not even sure if I completely believe myself on this one, but just the sense of normalcy and living a normal life and being able to go to work will be nice.
- Shopping. Ok, work comes first so I have money to go shopping. But being able to get out of the house and go places without worrying about what germs I might come in contact with.
- Travelling. Again with the germs. And I miss my family and home and it will be nice to be able to get back to PA for awhile.
In closing here’s a picture of our Christmas tree. The garland is made out of oragami paper cranes which are part of the symbol for small cell ovarian cancer and are a also a symbol of health. Friends and family have coordinated to make a thousand of these for me during my treatment. I think the tree is beautiful, even if it is fake. Fortunately God created pine scented candles so we have those to compensate…