… Great things he hath done.
So loved He the world that he gave us His Son
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin
And opened the lifegate that all may come in
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the earth hear his voice
Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord
Let the people rejoice
Oh come to the Father through Jesus the Son
And give Him the glory great things He hath done
I woke up around 3 am last night and couldn’t fall back asleep for almost 2 hours and this old hymn came to me (I almost got up right then and blogged about it). I love these old hymns, the almost cryptic and beautifully profound poetry. There are few songs written with such depth these days. I think the reason this song came to be is because I’ve had so many people tell me they are using my situation to bring glory to God whenever they talk about it. In the middle of the haze of chemo and drugs it makes it hard to say it’s worth it, but it does make me feel honored.
The last week has truly been a haze. The nausea from chemo wasn’t terrible, but I did have some effects Tuesday night and Wed morning, so they upped my meds. Actually they put me on Benadryl during the day which pretty much knocked me out cold. The anti-nausea meds I was taking at home also made me groggy so I’ve been sleeping a lot. They told me days 5-7 after the start of chemo would probably be the worst, today is day 8 so we’re starting to cut back on those meds. Day 10 after chemo is supposed to be when my white blood cell count is the lowest so I’ll be the most tired. I have a Dr’s appt that day to draw blood and see how I’m doing, that’s Thursday.
Eating has been tough. Since my initial admission to the hospital (pre-surgery) I have lost 20 pounds. I’m trying to eat more, but food doesn’t have much flavor and I’m not that hungry. Between that and the nausea keeping weight on is tough. I have a break next week of no chemo and minimal meds I’m hoping to try to beef up some more. I feel like a whisper of my former self.
Today was a pretty good day though. There’s a pond just down the street from my apartment and mom and I walked to it and circled it twice after lunch. Oh, and the hat I was knitting during that first day of chemo got done! I’d post a picture, but it’s supposed to be a beret and in spite of losing 20 pounds my head is too big and it looks more like a beanie cap on me 🙂